I’m turning 50 this year and that has led me to start thinking about my life so far. One of things I’m thinking about is employment, more specifically, how tenuous employment has been in my life.  More than once, I have been laid off from a job.  I had a side job last summer where I was let go and wasn’t given a heads up that this was happening. I had no time to plan. I have work right now (two part-time jobs), but I am in need of finding some freelance work in order to make ends meet and that has been difficult. Finding work has always been difficult for me.  I sometimes wonder if it’s me. What I do know is that more often than not, I’ve felt like my work, my talents were disposable. 

About three years ago, I wrote something about my feelings about race and employment.  I don’t always want to think that everything is about race and I don’t want to become bitter, holding on to some excuse. 

I’m sharing this article here for people to read.  I pray that in the future I can be able to see myself as having agency.